Butchery In The Night

Every day, at some point, we stop talking. 
Life happens, time goes on. It’s normal. 
Every night I convince myself of the same thing. 
That at some point that day, you started hating me.  

How am I supposed to escape this? 
How can I heal a wound that is both companion and jailer? 
I am a shadow you cast. 
Without you, I don’t exist.  

So that’s what I do every night. 
I cut myself to pieces, and cry that you weren’t there to stop me. 
Cut, carve, and butcher myself until all I see is blood. 
How could you do this thing you never did?